Warped at Twenty Six

Start Over

2008-01-03T10:20:00.001+08:00

When you've trusted God and walked his way
When you've felt his hand lead you day by day
But your steps now take you another way ...
Start over.

When you've made your plans and they've gone awry
When you've tried your best and there's no more try
When you've failed yourself and you don't know why ...
Start over.

When you've told your friends what you plan to do
When you've trusted them and they didn't come through
And you're all alone and it's up to you ...
Start over.

When you've failed your kids and they're grown and gone
When you've done your best but it's turned out wrong
And now your grandchildren come along ...
Start over.

When you've prayed to God so you'll know his will
When you've prayed and prayed and you don't know still ...
When you want to stop cause you've had your fill ...
Start over.

When you think you're finished and want to quit
When you've bottomed out in life's deepest pit
When you've tried and tried to get out of it ...
Start over.

When the year has been long and successes few
When December comes and you're feeling blue
God gives a January just for you ...
Start over.

Starting over means "Victories Won"
Starting over means "A Race Well Run"
Starting over means "God's Will Done"
Don't just sit there ............ ..

by Woodrow Kroll of "Back to the Bible"

Fight Fire with Fire

2007-10-31T10:23:00.003+08:00

Fight Fire with Fire
Metallica

Do unto others as they
have done to you
But what the hell is this
world coming to?

Blow the universe into nothingness
Nuclear warfare shall lay us to rest

Fight fire with fire
Ending is near
Fight fire with fire
Bursting with fear

We all shall die

Time is like a fuse,
short and burning fast
Armageddon is here, like
said in the past

Fight fire with fire
Ending is near
Fight fire with fire
Bursting with fear

Soon to fill our lungs the
hot winds of death
The gods are laughing, so
take your last breath

Fight fire with fire
Ending is near
Fight fire with fire
Bursting with fear

Fight fire with fire
(repeat)

Lent

2007-02-21T10:37:00.001+08:00

"Is this a fast, to keep
The larder lean?
And clean
From fat of
veals, and sheep?
Is it to quit the dish
of flesh, yet still
To
fill
The platter high with fish?
Is it to fast an hour,
Or ragged
to go,
Or show a downcast look, and sour?
"No: 'tis a fast, to dole
Thy sheaf of wheat, and meat
Unto the hungry soul.
It is to fast
from strife,
From old debate
And hate;
To circumcise thy life.
"To show a heart grief-rent;
To starve thy sin,
not bin;
And
that's to keep thy Lent."

- Robert Herrick, a seventeenth century poet

If You Love Someone...

2007-02-14T09:57:00.000+08:00

Here are times in life...
When the person you will love,
For the rest of your life.
Walks into your life.

Sometimes, just sometimes...
You hurt that person,
You push them away.
Not meaning to,
But you do.

Because you do this...
You lose that person,
They walk away.

At times...
You are afraid,
To go on, after this.
But what choice do you have?

All you can do...
Is hope that one day,
If that person really was the one.
You will meet again.

And if, just by chance...
You get that second chance,
Remember the past.

Learn from your mistakes,
And never let them happen again.
And by doing this...
You will find out,
That a lifetime of happiness awaits.

If kisses were water, I'd give you a sea,
If hugs were leaves, I'd give you a tree,
If spaces were love, I'd give eternity,

And if you are true and sincere to me,
I'll keep all my love just for thee.
And every morning when you open your eyes,
Tell yourself that it is special.

Every day, every minute,
Every second is a gift from God.
You've got to dance like nobody's watching,
And love like it's never going to hurt.

People say true friends must always hold hands,
But true friends don't need to hold hands
Because they know the other
Hand will always be there.

- Unknown author
(napulot ko lang)...

Be Free

2007-01-29T13:45:00.000+08:00

If you are quick to take offense, then you'll be under the control of those whom you find offensive.

If you are easily angered, then your actions will be dictated by those who anger you.

If you are obsessed by what other people think, then you will be imprisoned by their thoughts.

If you yearn for easy answers and quick solutions, you'll fall prey to people who offer nothing but promises.

If you find the truth too difficult to bear, you'll be enslaved to those who tell you what you want to hear.

When you have the courage to think for yourself, the strength to accept what is, the commitment and discipline to make a difference, then you are free.
You are truly free to live with purpose, joy and fulfillment.

Let your life be defined not by your reactions to what others do, say or think, but rather by your own unique vision.

Raise your eyes above the pettiness and follow the path of the greatness that is within you.

- By Ralph Marston

If tomorrow starts without me

2006-11-16T14:13:00.000+08:00

If tomorrow starts without me,
And I'm not there to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me;

I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today,
While thinking of the many things,
We didn't get to say.

I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too;

But when tomorrow starts without me,
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name,
And took me by the hand,

And said my place was ready,
In heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind
All those I dearly love.

But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye,
For all my life, I'd always thought,
I didn't want to die.

I had so much to live for,
So much left yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible,
That I was leaving you.

I thought of all the yesterdays,
The good ones and the bad,
I thought of all that we shared,
And all the fun we had.

If I could relive yesterday,
Just even for a while,
I'd say good-bye and kiss you
And maybe see you smile.

But then I fully realized,
That this could never be,
For emptiness and memories,
Would take the place of me.

And when I thought of worldly things,
I might miss some tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.

But when I walked through heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
From His great golden throne,

He said, "This is eternity,
And all I've promised you."
Today your life on earth is past,
But here life starts anew.

I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last,
And since each day is the same way,
There's no longing for the past.

So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don't think we're far apart,
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here, in your heart "

-- Author Unknown

i believe

2006-11-06T09:34:00.000+08:00

I believe in Miracles and dreams that will come true,
And I believe in happiness And friendship, through and through
I believe that when you cry your tears are not in vain,
And when you're sad and lonely someone knows that you're in pain.
I believe that when we laugh a sparkle starts to shine,
And before you know these sparks will spread
From more hearts than just mine.
I believe the gifts you have are there for you to share
And when you give them from the heart, the whole world knows you care.
I believe that if you give, even just to one,
That gift will grow in magnitude before the day is done.
I believe that comfort comes from giving part of me,
And if I share with others, there's more for all so see.
I believe that love is still the greatest gift of all,
And when it's given from the heart, Love will conquer all.

-- Author Unknown

release me

2006-10-31T11:28:00.000+08:00

i am tired
of all your lies
your pretensions
to become
a part of me

i could tell
from your ways
i am not the one
but a dark surface
to your selfish desires

i could no longer bear
your tolerance
to disillusion
and greed
i puked

i could not
trust your word
more of your acts
so lewd
i am always in doubt.

i am not princely
but your impression
says that your right
i believed
but now, all gone.

what would happen
i don’t know
i loved you once
but not for long
release me now.
i am but drained.

a time for everything

2006-10-06T11:56:00.000+08:00

There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

doomsday

2006-09-26T11:44:00.000+08:00

gluttons waiting
for a decaying soul
in a barren land
a conspiracy exist
an outbreak persist
the black plague circling
the nimbus
pending to pour
a dry haze

fear echoed
across mountains
bells rang
as dark horned horses
roamed and heaved chaos
as the eclipse
of the sun
waves a tide
of despair

with a wink of an eye
seas turns red
a once blooming field
was zero grounded
a burrow so hefty
a mushroom of cloud
planted in blue
demeaning
every inch of life

roots of the inevitable
collapse is evident
as a time bomb was set
by himself detonated
death comes a stroke
distilling the morals
shifts the spring
to novel beginning
end.

The Loop of Happiness

2006-09-12T14:58:00.000+08:00

Dreamt of greens in the horizon
While anxiety lives in the hindsight
Swayed by the bliss of morning winds
I was led into the gates of heaven
Visible and far away, I have a key
To unlock and penetrate
The pits and peak of mystery.

Wandering around, a power seeped in
A fleeting might flowing through the veins
A moment of glee soothing every nerve
I can hop every isles and seas
Walked half the earth on barefoot
Understand the doubts in between
And exploit the door of ecstasy.

I watched the verdant lush of greens
Don its beauty as it plays a stage
To an orchestra of birds and insects
Every species I saw cheered and clapped
While the skies are the perfect back draft
Beamed by the broad jaw of the sun
Pointing the stars, the trail of hope.

No pain was too dire to endure
Only to grasp the gift of paradise
Later to recognize I was into a maze
There is no gate, I failed to understand
The search is not on seeking the light
But to cease the search and revere
For the paradise is on Earth.

2006-07-27T14:07:00.000+08:00

Mr Pregnant

WTF?

Quote of the day

2006-07-05T18:11:00.000+08:00

Watch your thoughts; they become words.

Watch your words; they become actions.

Watch your actions; they become habits.

Watch your habits; they become character .

Watch your character; it becomes your destiny .

Baby of your choice

2006-06-23T12:12:00.000+08:00

Again, I could not find the time to write. And for the purposes of filling up this blog, I am literally copying a forwarded email. Hope this would help in choosing the gender of your baby. For those of you do not have any plan in the near future, you can keep it for future reference.

Background:
Man’s sperm consists of X & Y spermatozoa, X spermatozoon decides the female whereas Y is the male. Referring to these physiological properties of the spermatozoa, gynecologists set up the theory of ‘Choice of a girl or a boy’.

1st factor: Food
If you want a baby girl:
Husband must eat more alkaline food, wife eats more acidic food.
If you want a baby boy:
Husband eats more acidic food, wife eats more alkaline food.

Alkaline food: vegetables, fruits, egg white, milk, algae, etc.
Acidic food: meat, seafood, etc.

2nd factor: Timing (When to do it ?)
If you want a baby girl:
Frequent copulation during pre-ovulation period.
If you want a baby boy:
Copulating just before ovulation or just after ovulation.

How to confirm ovulation period:
Body temperature increases (you may want to use SPC chart to monitor your body temperature here).

3rd factor: Penetration (How to do it ?)
If you want a baby girl:
Husband to avoid deep penetration in the female vagina during copulation.
If you want a baby boy:
Deep penetration by the husband is suggested.

Reasoning:
Characteristics of X & Y spermatozoa
- X: Marathon runner with good stamina
- Y: Sprinter but poor stamina
So, with deep penetration, the chances for Y to reach destination will be higher.

4th factor: Stimulation
If you want a baby girl:
Wife should avoid stimulation during copulation. Secretion from female vagina becomes alkaline when stimulated, therefore this promotes the activity of Y spermatozoon.
If you want a baby boy:
Husband ejaculates after wife has been stimulated.

5th factor: Wife’s Preparation
If you want a baby girl:
Rinse the vagina with solution dissolving 2 spoonfuls of white vinegar in 1 liter of water. Since an acidic condition decreases activity of Y spermatozoon.
If you want a baby boy:
Rinse the vagina with solution dissolving 2 spoonfuls of soda in 1 liter of water.

6th factor: Positioning
If you want a baby girl:
Female to be on the top position & male to be on the bottom position.
If you want a baby boy:
Male to be on the top position & female to be on the bottom position. This posture allows the Y spermatozoon to reach the destination faster.

My Birthday and Me

2006-05-30T16:28:00.000+08:00

Wala na namang magawa. Kaya sinagutan ko ang isang sarbey sa internet at pinost ko dito. I-search nyo na lang sa net kung saang website ito kasi di ko na sya matandaan. Malamang na-receive nyo na rin yung link nito sa mga email nyo. Ano nga bang sense nito? Wala. Para lang may bagong mailagay dito. Next time na si literary.

Birthday: 6/17/1979
Date of conception was on or about 24 September 1978 which was a Sunday.
You were born on a Sunday under the astrological sign Gemini.
Your Life path number is 4.
Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 4, 8, 11 & 22.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 6 & 7.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 3, 5 & 9.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2444041.5.
The golden number for 1979 is 4.
The epact number for 1979 is 2.The year 1979 was not a leap year.
Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 1/28/1979 and ending 2/15/1980.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Goat.
The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 15 April 1979.
The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 22 April 1979.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 28 February 1979.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 3 June 1979.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 10 June 1979.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Saturday, 22 September 1979.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Thursday, 12 April 1979.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 27 February 1979.

As of 5/26/2006 10:21:31 AM EDT
You are 26 years old.
You are 323 months old.
You are 1,405 weeks old.
You are 9,840 days old.
You are 236,170 hours old.
You are 14,170,221 minutes old.
You are 850,213,291 seconds old.

Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 3.85127201565558 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)
There are 22 days till your next birthdayon which your cake will have 27 candles.
Those 27 candles produce 27 BTUs, or 6,804 calories of heat (that's only 6.8040 food Calories!) .
You can boil 3.09 US ounces of water with that many candles.
In 1979 there were approximately 3.1 million births in the US.
In 1979 the US population was approximately 203,302,031 people, 57.4 persons per square mile.
In 1979 in the US there were approximately 2,152,662 marriages (10.1%) and 1,036,000 divorces (4.9%)
In 1979 in the US there were approximately 1,921,000 deaths (9.5 per 1000)
In the US a new person is born approximately every 8 seconds.In the US one person dies approximately every 12 seconds.

Your birthstone is Alexandrite
The Mystical properties of Alexandrite
Alexandrite can assist one in centering the self, reinforcing self-esteem, and augmenting ones ability to experience joy.

Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)

Pearl, Moonstone, Opal

Your birth tree is
Fig Tree, the Sensibility
Very strong, a bit self-willed, independent, does not allow contradiction or arguments, loves life, its family, children and animals, a bit of a butterfly, good sense of humour, likes idleness and laziness, of practical talent and intelligence.

The moon's phase on the day you were born was in its last quarter.

The International Rules of Manhood

2006-05-30T16:14:00.000+08:00

At dahil wala kong ma-post ngayon (dahil sa pagkukunwari sa trabaho), nais kong i-share ito sa aking mga giliw na tagahanga (magparamdam naman kayo sa shoutbox). Actually, wala tong kwenta. Pangpuno lang sa blog. Para meron lang post sa May. Nabakante kasi itong blog ko ng isang buwan. Anyway, ito ay tungkol sa rules of manhood. Napulot ko lang sa internet kaya pinost ko na rin. Baka mas madami ang makabasa dito. Haha. Self explanatory na siguro yung mga nakasulat dito kaya di na ko mag co-comment. Pwede nyo ding kopyahin. Di naman sa kin to e. Heto na...

1. Under no circumstances may two men to share an umbrella.
2. It is OK for a man to cry ONLY under the following circumstances:
(a) When a heroic dog dies to save its master.
(b) The moment Angelina Jolie starts unbuttoning her blouse.
(c) After wrecking your boss' car.
(d) One hour, 12 minutes, 37 seconds into "The CryingGame".
(e) When she is using her teeth.
3. Any Man who brings a camera to a bachelor party may be legally killed and eaten by his buddies.
4. Unless he murdered someone in your family, you must bail a friendout of jail within 12 hours.
5. If you've known a guy for more than 24 hours, his sister is off limits forever unless you actually marry her.
6. Moaning about the brand of free beer in a buddy's fridge is forbidden. However complain at will if the temperature is unsuitable.
7. No man shall ever be required to buy a birthday present for another man. In fact, even remembering your buddy's birthday is strictly optional. At that point, you must celebrate at a strip bar of the birthday boy's choice.
8. On a road trip, the strongest bladder determines pit stops, not the weakest.
9. When stumbling upon other guys watching a sporting event, you may ask the score of the game in progress, but you may never ask who's playing.
10. You may flatulate in front of a woman only after you have brought her to climax. If you trap her head under the covers for the purpose offl atulent entertainment, she's officially your girlfriend.
11. It is permissible to drink a fruity alcohol drink only when you're sunning on a tropical beach... and it's delivered by a topless model and only when it's free.
12. Only in situations of moral and/or physical peril are you allowed to kick another guy in the nuts.
13. Unless you're in prison, never fight naked.
14. Friends don't let friends wear Speedos. Ever. Issue closed.
15. If a man's fly is down, that's his problem, you didn't see anything.
16. Women who claim they "love to watch sports" must be treated as spies until they demonstrate knowledge of the game and the ability to drink as much as the other sports watchers.
17. A man in the company of a hot, suggestively dressed woman must remain sober enough to fight.
18. Never hesitate to reach for the last beer or the last slice of pizza, but not both, that's just greedy.
19. If you compliment a guy on his six-pack, you'd better be talking about his choice of beer.
20. Never join your girlfriend or wife in discussing a friend ofyours, except if she's withholding sex pending your response.
21. Phrases that may NOT be uttered to another man while lifting weights:
(a) Yeah, Baby, Push it!
(b) C'mon, give me one more! Harder!
(c) Another set and we can hit the showers!
22. Never talk to a man in a bathroom unless you are on equal footing: i.e., both urinating, both waiting in line, etc. 23. For all other situations, an almost imperceptible nod is all the conversation you need.
24. Never allow a telephone conversation with a woman to go on longer than you are able to have sex with her. Keep a stopwatch by the phone. Hang up if necessary.
25. The morning after you and a girl who was formerly "just afriend" have carnal, drunken monkey sex, the fact that you're feeling weird and guilty is no reson for you not to nail each other again before the discussion about what a big mistake it was occurs.
26. It is acceptable for you to drive her car. It is not acceptable for her to drive yours.
27. Thou shalt not buy a car in the colors of brown, pink, limegreen, orange or sky blue.
28. The girl who replies to the question "What do you want for Christmas?" with "If you loved me, you'd know what I want!" gets an Xbox. End of story.
29. There is no reason for guys to watch Ice Skating or Men's Gymnastics. Ever.

Source: The International Councilof Manhood, Ltd.

Silent walk

2006-03-27T17:21:00.000+08:00

It was dark in the shores of hope
I could sense the apathy of the moon
And nonchalance of the waves
Gulping the sundry thoughts
Clouding every inch of rays
I am lost.

A hasty breeze seeps through
I stopped and gently inhale
While my eyes are at the horizon
I could feel the waters on my feet
Dripping my parched essence
I was one with the sea.

As the sky opened its broad jaw
I taste the sweet embrace of the waters
And throw a rare shell with all might
Took a picture perfect pose
And finally kissed the sand adieu
I saw the first light of dawn.

Late at work

2006-03-16T16:02:00.000+08:00

6: 15 am. I somehow composed my still sleepy thoughts as I sit in our newly vacuumed sofa. When my eyes and mind began taking its shape, I instantly wear my contact lenses and bought pandesal in a nearby store. I came back a little sweaty, bubbled three cups water for my daily caffeine dose.

6: 35 am. As I was blissfully consuming a scarcely prepared cheese-filled pandesal and a soothing aroma of instant cappuccino, I heard the infuriating alarm from my mobile phone. I did not bother to check, as I already knew days before that I have a conference call at 8 am. And I don’t wanna be late for the nth time.

6: 50 am. I turned the radio on for a boost, lighted a couple of cigarettes, packed up some papers, prepared my polo and pants, shadow boxed, jumped and lifted weights. I was pumped up this time, as sweat flows from my forehead.

7:10 am. I took the towel in our improvised sampayan, swipe off my sweat, and took whatever fabric I am on. And to the bathroom I go. I turn the usual faulty faucet as I sit comfortably in a newly installed pull up seat to release the toxins and swipe the excess. Right after, I splatter tons of water with a fractured tabo whose life is about to end in a week. I quickly lather my body with a loofa given by my housemate weeks back, rinse and dry with a smelly towel from weeks constant use.

7:30 am. Of course, toothbrush, lotion, suave, shave. Get off the bathroom, put on my pants, wipe my wet feet with a used piece of cloth, put foot powder, socks and shoes. Still half-naked, I sprayed someone else perfume and wear the polo shirt I prepared earlier. I am now in a great hurry.

7:35 am. Five minutes of vanity and I am ready to go. I say my adieu to the ones asleep.

7:36 am. I walk towards LRT station which is a stones' throw away from our apartment. No need to buy tickets as I already have a spare prepaid card. I am walking like mad now. I insert my ticket and wait for the train. Embark to the train, squeeze myself with other passengers. Disembark at EDSA station to take the MRT. I submit my bag for inspection. Insert my prepaid card. Sit comfortably in the train whose door would exactly open at the ticket booth (it would be a lot easier to stay near the door because people would pile up for lines at the ticket exit).

8:00 am. At the MRT Ortigas station. I walked fast paced, overtaking most of the pedestrian along the way.

8:14 am. I am at the office. The show is on. I am late. I quietly sneaked in as the call is already starting. I sat and took my notebook out. Act like I am taking down my notes.

9:40 am. The call ended. My boss (who was in HK) asked us to call him immediately in his office. I was somehow jittery at this point. We talked about the things to do to address the call. Right after, my boss told me that he was disappointed at me. That is, because I am late. I feel dumbfounded and blank, I could not talk.

9:45 am. I immediately went to my cubicle. Sat for a while and compose myself. Find what should I do and assess what I have done wrong. My boss is right. I am expected to be on time. I somehow develop this manana habit when I was still lurking in the government. I thought everything would adjust to my time. I am in a different world now. And I should adjust myself to the world I am with now. That is the moral of the story. Haha...

By the way, you’d see a lot of wall clocks in our pad…

Decipher what Girls Tell You

2006-03-16T09:15:00.000+08:00

She says: "I don't want to ruin our friendship."
What she means: I am not attracted to you, or I don't feel enough chemistry to date you -- but I do like you as friend.
Why she does this: She probably does want to remain friends, but doesn't want to hurt your feelings by admitting that she doesn't feel the same attraction for you.
What you should do: Don't take it personally; she just doesn't feel the same chemistry as you do. Take the hint and work on being friends with her, if that's what you want.

She says: "I'm just so busy with work right now."
What she means: I am not interested in fitting you into my schedule.
Why she does this: She wants to let you down easy. Instead of being blunt, she is hoping you'll just get the picture.
What you should do: When a woman likes a man, she will always find time for him -- no matter what her schedule is like. So don't kid yourself into thinking that the situation might change. Instead, move on right away.

She says: "Are you seeing anyone right now?"
What she means: I might like to submit an application for the position of your girlfriend.
Why she does this: She wants to make sure she is not wasting her precious flirting energy on a man who is already spoken for.
What you should do: Answer honestly, and then hit her up for her phone number.

She says: "Do you really want to go to that restaurant/movie/dinner party?"
What she means: I really don't want to go to.
Why she does this: She doesn't want to go, but she doesn't want to appear stubborn either. She is probably hoping you'll sense her hesitation and come up with an alternate plan that pleases her.
What you should do: If you have your heart set on going to that particular destination, stick to your guns. Otherwise, you might want to switch up in order to please her. Remember this: If you keep her happy, she'll keep you happy.

She says: "You have a knack for dealing with kids. They really seem to respond to you."
What she means: I am contemplating eventually having children with you and am wondering where you stand in that department.
Why she does this: An indirect question is her way of feeling you out without freaking you out.
What you should do: Don't freak out. She is probably thinking very distantly into the future (yes, women do this). If, however, you absolutely positively know that you never want kids, this would be a good time to say it.

She says: "Where is this relationship going?"
What she means: I would like us to graduate to a more serious, exclusive relationship.
Why she does this: She wants you to be the one to suggest exclusivity.
What you should do: This depends on whether or not you actually want exclusivity. If so, suggest it. If not, let her know that you care about her, but are not interested in being exclusive right now.

She says: "I feel so close to you right now. You know me so well."
What she means: I am starting to feel the l-word, but I don't want to be the first to say it.
Why she does this: It's a scary thing to be the first to say "I love you." It's much easier for her to hint and hope that you'll take the plunge first.
What you should do: Do not -- under any circumstances -- say the l-word if you don't mean it. If you do feel it, then go ahead; otherwise, don't say anything. In the long run, you'll be happy not to get entangled in such a lie.

She says: "I feel like our relationship is stuck in a routine right now."
What she means: I want you to be more romantic and spontaneous, and surprise me more. I need you to pay more attention to my needs.
Why she does this: She doesn't want to hurt your feelings and admit that you are, in part, the cause of the rut.
What you should do: You don't need to change your personality entirely, but it wouldn't kill you to surprise her every once in a while. Call her out of the blue and tell her you're taking her for dinner, go on a spontaneous weekend away, or just surprise her with her favorite chocolates.

She says: "A man was flirting with me all night."
What she means: Does it make you jealous?
Why she does this: She wants you to know that she's a hot commodity and that other men are interested in her. She wants you to appreciate what you have.
What you should do: Don't respond to it in a way she'll expect, like by getting angry or jealous. Instead, pay her a compliment -- she's definitely fishing for it. Don't get all insane with jealousy; just let her know what she means to you, or else she'll be playing this card every so often to set you straight.

She says: "Do you get along well with your mother?"
What she means: Are you a family man?
Why she does this: A man who gets along with his mother tends to be more loyal, sensitive and devoted -- at least that's the stereotype that a lot of women buy into.
What you should do: Talk about how close you and your mother are; you could even tell a couple of stories. Just enough to affirm that yes, you get along with her.

She says: "I'm just not ready to make a commitment."
What she means: I'm not ready to commit to you, and may never be.
Why she does this: She uses this tactic to soften the blow; nine times out of 10, this means that she doesn't see a future with you... ever.
What you should do: Don't stick around until she's ready to make a commitment. Chances are, when she's finally ready, it won't be with you.

She says: "I think we should stay friends."
What she means: I am trying to cut you out of my life gradually.
Why she does this: She thinks it would be easier to gradually stop seeing you instead of going cold turkey. She may even want to keep you around as a backup.
What you should do: Stay friends if you like. But don't let yourself become the backup guy. If she wants to get back together down the line, ask yourself if she's only doing it because she hasn't found anyone else.

Taken from www.askmen.com

Animal Adventures

2006-03-13T19:03:00.000+08:00

I am hungry...

Toying the snake....

Ultraelectromagneticjam

2006-02-28T15:16:00.000+08:00

Well, for all those who don’t know what the subject is all about, it is a collection of orig Eheads songs as revived by various Filipino artists. I chanced upon my officemate having an MP3 CD which contains all of Eheads songs plus of course the recharged one. I instantly bought a blank CD at NBS and immediately have it copied (what is intellectual property?). And only now that I chanced upon to hear its stuff. Here is a rundown of my comments.

1. Para sa Masa (various artists)– the original song is as heartrending as the emotions of Eli (vocals). Very rich in contents and very well crafted. If you’re the masa type, then you would easily relate to this song. The only thing I find irksome is the rap segment of Francis M.

2. Pare Ko (Sponge Cola) – a sentimental favorite for those who have been dumped by a loved one and of course, a certified signature song of Eheads. Who wouldn’t recall this song -- once my favorite way back in college, not because of its lyrics, but more or less, its craftsmanship. A good song for gimiks and inuman with its easy to follow chords. Sounds like orig din except the words "tangina" and "nabuburat" were highlighted. Better instrumental.

3. Magasin (Paolo Santos) – Ikaw ba yan? At first, I thought it was Rey Valera until the second stanza which sounded more of Eli on karaoke. Gave the original much justice. But better be heard than seen. =)

4. Overdrive (Barbie Almalbis) – Without a doubt, sounds like Barbie Almalbis and her cradle. If not only for her charm, the song would have been empty. Parang hirap na hirap mag-tagalog. Really. Imagine the Eheads writing a nonsense lyrics but still able to inflict damage to its listener.

5. Ang Huling El Bimbo (Rico J. Puno) – This I can recall vividly as this was our "batchsong" when we entered an academic organization in UPLB. I was even teased why we chose this song to be our batch song. Well, the song has a easy to follow guitar chords, I could easily understand and perform in a small audience. The problem though was, how can I relate the lyrics of this song, to our batch. Well, that was more than 9 years ago when I was still dumbfounded by the rigors of an org. I also recall the MTV of this song, a child in his childhood, dancing El Bimbo with his supposed partner until they broke up. Anyway, the song is a classic for Eheads. Good job for Rico J! Very innocent and pure. Haha!

6. With a Smile (Southborder) – They gave the song a new flavor and twist, and suits best in taste of the market right now. R&B twist. A good driving music. Kaya if you have a chick with you, for sure, mapapakanta yan.

7. Ligaya (Kitchie Nadal) – She somehow laughed at the lines "ilang ahit pa ba ang aahitin…" Mukhang may naalaa o nagpa cute lang. Ang panget ng rendition nya. Parang napatagay lang sa kanto, sabay kanta. At least, may face value.

8. Alapaap (6 Cycle Mind) - this is a wonderful song tainted by a then comedian-senator. He made so much gaga over a song, nagpaka Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds ng Beatles itong senator na ito, a song that advocated drug use daw. duh? Listen to the lyrics. It’s a liberating song. Mas kapatid ng Redemption Song ni Bob Marley than Beatle's LSD.

9. Torpedo (Isha) - sino si Isha?? Somehow it's a good attempt at providing a different, more bouncy arrangement to a very noisy song. Mas kalmado ang version na 'to. The effect is different pala when a girl sings this song.

10. Huwag mo ng Itanong (MYMP) - never paid much attention to the hype this group has received. but listen to this song as rendered by their female lead, grabe! a haunting voice she has. a very nice driving music, during a traffic-less dark night, running at a steady 50-70kph. ang ganda! plus i like this song for containing a "wala-lang" line but when you think about it, oo nga. tama! -- "field trip sa may pagawaan ng lapis, ay katulad ng buhay natin. 'sang mahabang pilang mabagal at walang katuturan."

11. Huwag kang Matakot (Orange & Lemons) - a wonderful cover by a band made famous by having (and shamelessly) copied the arrangement of a Brit band for the PBB theme. Gusto ko lang sila because you can easily mistake their sound na parang si Morissey of the Smiths. plus they were successful in making the song "their own" by infusing much of their Beatles-inspired beat, with a slight nod to Julie Tearjerky towards the end of the song caps the experience. Pinag-isipan ang areglo.

12. Super Proxy (Francis M) – Maganda ang areglo. Swabe. Sounds like U2 and Metallica on their prime.

13. Tikman (Sugar Free) - a better rendition by the Panday theme song singers (ang bagong jukebox tune ng bayan. yikes!) of a lesser-known EHeads song.

14. Alkohol (Radioactive Sago Project) - not too familiar with the original. But Radioactive gave the song a 180degrees twist! Ibang-iba! It becomes a truly Radioactive Sago song. For those who do not know Radioactive, try em out. Magaling sila. Kakaiba!

15. Maling Akala (Brownman Revival) - A well revived song. Sounds like the original. The twist is its reggae feel. A decent revival by the revivals.

16. Hard to Believe (Cueshe) - ho-hum... gisingin niyo na lang ako. Zzzzzz….

17. Spoliarium (Imago) - an alien song to me. Really. But having listened to the orig and the cover gave me a renewed appreciation of the song. Very nice rendition by Imago, especially with the Aimee Mann-sounding voice of the lead.

Well, that’s all! Seventeen Eheads songs revived in a wonderful album. Sana lang e wala ng clamor like people power for an Eheads reunification. I-reminisce na lang natin ang mga magagandang memories.

Sana this would be a prelude to something more! I’d like to hear Toyang, Kaliwete, Fruitcake at ang Tamagochi Baby. Ang saya! =)

Passion of Dreams

2006-02-20T10:48:00.000+08:00

Dawn breaks at noon
At a castle in the sky
With wings of a butterfly
We were fled
In the shores of neverland
Where a solitary tree stands proud
To shade our thirst and desire
I felt the gentle breeze through
My skin, chaste as white
The composure of a child
Seeps in as we fell forty winks.

I was aroused by a stroke
Of a soothing touch of your hands
To my half naked flesh
I was enthralled and stirred
To feel your lips in my ears
In my lips down to my torso
I was stunned as I countered
Your walls, I stripped off
The boundaries of guilt, I slashed
As I yearn, nibble an unsullied skin
And esteem on your flesh.

I was enthused by your robust acts
A wildfire teeming a soggy forest
I move in, allowing the itch
To control the flames of passion
Escalating every bit of current
Every whine of bliss, a harmony
A sudden jingle
Like a roaring tiger incisive to its prey
Deeply searching for its pinnacle
Firmly holding to every thrust
Gently cuddling its body.

As the sweat of absolute surge
Trickle down the stream
And as the final culmination looms
Within the circles of the earth
We were floating in euphoria
Calmness blankets the point
I look deeply into your eyes
And kiss you wholly on your lips
But I saw you gone in a wink
I was awakened at 4:44 p.m.
Sopping.

Realism

2006-02-13T16:01:00.000+08:00

figure of disguise
crapped the wholeness
of a universe parallel
wisdom at odds
sun scarred, I am
scathed with blood, all over
romanticism in favor
a pack of wolves tuned
a gaggle of ducks danced
prized pot of gold turned
gluttons in splendor
fleeting
while the conflicting race
endure the anguish, the dust
cloaking into air as sludge
as food, as breathe
verges through existence
the flow of sweat, dry
amidst the winter chill
the pain of toil exists still
while evolution
slower than human
but of hearts quick
stab.

The will of God

2006-01-31T16:37:00.000+08:00

The will of God will never take you
Where the grace of God cannot keep you
Where the arms of God cannot support you
Where the riches of God cannot supply your needs
Where the power of God cannot endow you

The will of God will never take you
Where the spirit of God cannot work through you
Where the wisdom of God cannot teach you
Where the army of God cannot protect you
Where the hands of God cannot mold you

The will of God will never take you
Where the love of God cannot enfold you
Where the mercies of God cannot sustain you
Where the peace of God cannot calm your fears
Where the authority of God cannot overrule for you

The will of God will never take you
Where the comfort of God cannot dry your tears
Where the word of God cannot feed you
Where the miracles of God cannot be done for you
Where the omnipresence of God cannot find you.

Everything happens for a purpose.
We may not see the wisdom of it all now
But trust and believe in the Lord
That everything is for the best."
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This was taken from http://www.godswork.org/. I was amazed at how this piece of work has inspired me in everyday life. More than the trials and tribulation is the ultimate hope of the divine will. We only need to believe and have faith. The rest will fall in its righteous place and heavenly time.

Post game mode

2006-01-25T11:37:00.000+08:00

I attempted to be a clairvoyant last Friday, and proved that I have no special gift as some of my friends claim to be. I failed in my prediction -- Morales will fall on the ninth round. I am one round short. I am not a boxing expert yet. I am still learning. But nevertheless, the bacon never tastes so sweet.

I woke up a little early on a dry and drowsy Sunday. And just like having an appointment at 10 am, I managed to prepare ahead of time. I was able to cook our meals for lunch, and prepared a bunch of meriendas for a couple of family friends and neighbors, as it was my parents’ 29th wedding anniversary.

But before the small salo-salo, I got very excited and apprehensive to watch the fight dubbed as "The Battle". I have some thoughts that if Manny loses, I would be in grief for some time, just like seeing your hopes falling to preys. But if Manny wins, I would rejoice as anyone who had experienced the feeling of winning jueteng. I would not say winning the lotto, because I may have fainted then. But nonetheless, I am thrilled to watch the fight, win or lose. Never mind the agony.

And this weird feeling came to a close when my father, who watched the event at a cable TV with his friends not far from us, prematurely announced that Manny won via TKO in the 10th round. It was still the opening round in the local coverage when he arrived. I could not believe it at first. Maybe, he was joking. And to reconfirm, I heard our neighbors yelling and shouting and putting on a couple of firecrackers. Without saying, the news was right. And it spread like wildfires. But I still have to see how Manny knocks down Morales.

But now, I have no anxiety left. What makes the event agonizing is the 5-minute commercial. Maybe, this is how the advertising world looks like. Never mind their world – I have to switch channels between rounds. Nonetheless, I still have to bear the pain to taste the sweet defeat of another country’s legend. And it was worth it. The fight end at 3 pm.

I think every Filipino have seen the fight. And it is euphoria for most of us. What a way to see a baffled country at peace, even the rebels and the militants were at cease. For most of the peace loving, would it be nice to see a fight every day with Manny? Or is it needed nowadays?

Well, I believe it is. But not necessarily Manny knocking down his opponents everytime and everyday. We have seen some of the irony in politics, media, government and other entities during and perhaps, a couple of minutes after the fight. The only thing I’d like to point is that this nation could be united for a reason. These reasons could be diverse but not necessarily changing the President or changing the system of government. More or less, it is changing our mindset.

Again, I may fail in this forecast this time. One thing I am sure of, I enjoyed the food that I prepared for our small salo-salo, and elated over Manny’s win, even until now.

A Cinderella tale

2006-01-20T13:46:00.000+08:00

I am not really a boxing obsessive unlike my father, who in a sluggish Sunday afternoon, stalk on branded and unbranded fight fighters on local television. My father would have his time, even if I am glued on my couch, watching DVDs I have just bought at Quiapo for 40 each. I would forego my modest weekend pleasure for him to watch boxing not only because of respect, but of fears that may trigger another argument. I may have excellent arguing skills but could not further my reasons to my father.

But come this Sunday, I would be as nuts as he is. The epic rematch of Manny Pacquiao with Erik Morales has made me realize my subliminal passion for the sport. I have never been stacked reading various articles and opinions from the Internet regarding the fight. I somehow feel deprived if I would not contribute my fearless forecast at the forum, cast my vote and even argue to several die hard Morales’ fans. And to think that I was using the resources of the office every morning for more than two weeks just to get updated of the events along the way.

I also would have wanted to watch the fight at SM cinemas but the tickets sold like hotcakes and could not get one. At 300 bucks, you can watch the fight live as shown in the US, without the infuriating five-minute commercials per round as will be shown on local TV. I was even told that the 500-peso ticket at Rockwell has also been snapped. Imagine how many diehard Pac’s fans are going to troop SM early in the morning. Well, sort of a rally in a mall, perhaps with banners, placards and color coordinated shirts, but only now, cheering on a countryman instead of indicting the government.

I could hardly wait for the time when the country and its people are in unison. Envision this - no traffic on a Sunday, crimes will be at all time low, families will be together, enemies will be at one, no political rallies and bickering and so on. At least for an hour or so. Isn’t it nice to dream a reality once in a while?

The contagious flu which became endemic to a lot of Filipinos here and abroad, has had its grounds from Pacman’s rise from a lowly kargador to a world boxing fame and legend. With hopes and dreams on his side, he boldly traveled to Manila from General Santos City to seek a better future. With hardwork and determination, he was able to knockdown the obstacles of his life round per round. He humbly kept his pacing on his achievements and continually shows appreciation of the blessings given to him. He had also shown great devotion and fear of God. These qualities earn him the veneration of every Filipinos.

As I was reading another fresh article from a boxing source, when Pac loss to Erik in their last fight, the Filipino flag flew from a crutch, not far from the ring where Pacquiao’s blood flowed from a cut above one eye and down his face like tears. Yet, Filipino faith in Pacquiao was not shaken. If anything, it appears to have grown stronger, perhaps because in Pacquiao, Filipinos see their own resilience and ability to come back from defeat. True enough.

Manny brings all these realities in a nation who badly needs hope and faith. A Cinderella man who is willing to sacrifice everything for the pride and honor of his country. A prizefighter who was able to unify a baffled nation even the head of the country could not. A typical Filipino ready to face war to protect his family and friends.

Maybe, these are some of the reasons why my father loves boxing. And I am beginning to feel the same round per round. Aside from its entertaining value, the ideals of a great prizefighter are evident in each and every round as the Pac emanates. Knockdowns are inevitable along the way, but whether these would drag you down or pull you up would depend upon your choice and faith.

This Sunday, I will not be watching DVDs nor argue with my father. I will cheer for our hopes. The next day, expect the headlines "Pac triumph over Morales: KO – 9".

Wanderer

2006-01-13T14:43:00.000+08:00

Could this be real?
Or I am just dreaming
I could not believe
I am into this point
Of mystery and blur
Where the die has been cast
And the shadows of the past
Haunt my being.

How could I turn around
Counterclockwise
And let the sun shine again
In its rightful place and time
How could I go back
To fix a reality
And mend a broken soul
Of mine, lost and wandering!
I’ve been trying
But still could not see
The promise of life
Maybe a little more fault
And a little more crime
Till the cloud overflows
And maybe seek shelter
From someone, somewhere.
I am not losing my grip
I would not want to
But somehow it’s loose
Greasy, damp and sultry.
How could I mount
A dream of illusion
Where all else failed
And all won’t seek ahead.
I would desire a true angel
Falling down from the skies
To be my guide on earth
As I seek the road less traveled
Silent and uncomplicated
To protect from the evils around
And accede to the divine will
Of heaven. Not earth.

Manila bay sunset

2006-01-03T16:28:00.000+08:00

Serene. Peace. Calm. Tranquil. Composed. Unruffled. Soothing. Relaxing. Comforting. Uncompromising. Stunning. Sleepy. Wallpaper. Paint. Lovely. Delightful. Enchanting. Faith. Conviction. Assurance. Chance. Expectations. Magnificence. Splendor. Magical. Charming. Enticing. Superb. Miracle. Vision. Foresight. Mystical. Spiritual. Prayer. Life. God.

Rest with the skies

2006-01-02T13:40:00.000+08:00

As a sat still along the bay of Manila

I chanced upon a beautiful sky

With velvet colors of blue and violet
Cheered up by the infamous sunset
And the clouds up high
What a perfect view to forget
All the pains and doubts
That clouds my mind
And focus on the worthwhile.
At least once in a blue moon.
Release all the tensions that surrounds
In my deeply rooted insanity
A tranquilizer in view
A hope in mind
Peace.

At Enchanted Kingdom

2005-12-27T10:25:00.000+08:00

The pain of love

2005-12-14T17:35:00.000+08:00

You don't know
You can't see
What really goes on
Inside of me
My eyes shield
How I feel inside
You don't know
How much I've cried
My mouth restricts
What I'd really say
And make you think
I'm perfectly okay
I know you tried
You mean well
But I have things
I'd never tell
To truly laugh
To really smile
Is something
I haven't
Done in a while
You'll never know
How I really feel
I don't know how long
It will take to heal.
Just know that
I still love you
After everything
That I've been through.
You'll never see
Inside my mind
I'm protecting you
From what you'd find.
I protect you because
I love you so.
This is my pain
You'll never know.

Jungle Safari Christmas

2005-12-14T16:27:00.000+08:00

Dance of life

2005-12-14T16:15:00.000+08:00

Fleeting moments of solitude
I am dreaming the pits of bliss
Into my grasp, I can seize
The tree of bo still unearthed
Where I can seek and plead
The exculpation of indulgence
Of absolution, of doubt
And the unknowns of being.

I am drifting with forethought
To let my guards down
And devoured by wolves
In the iniquitous world of flesh
Confined and restricted
In a tapered box of chocolate
Waiting to be uncluttered
In the open hands of fate.

What then would I hold on to
If not for the morals of the circle
The median of the earth
Could have been bleak
And parallel with the ground
But naïve inside, unsullied
Cleared from the uncertainties
Of an untamed and ruthless evil.

The music sounds repulsive still
But have to dance away
Sway through a strobe light
And a floor filled unexpectedly
With smoke infuriating
Though the knack unimposing
I am dreaming of better times
Where I could party hard, harder.

The ghost of you

2005-11-23T16:39:00.000+08:00

Self conflict

2005-11-22T16:45:00.000+08:00

Distorted in a dreary place
Of an empty space along my veins
As cynical as any mind would conceive
Floating in a midst of a void
I never would have wished for
Not in this point of disdain

I could not fathom either
The depths of ignominy
And the ignorance of vision
Exhausted by contemplation
Of belongingness and blame
That I have not a rein for

I am jaded but without a cent
Been probing intensely to seek
A conscientious responsibility
And a deliberate crack
Of constant sanity and toil
Flowing directly, spontaneously.

Incessantly been on the temper
Not without harm to nobody
The fiercest of the fumes
Beyond the reach of the horizon
Shall build a carillon of fire
To reach the temple of illusion

When shall the ordeal end
Now that the thespians are in play
Yet the music out of tune
The light drifting apart but still
A swarm of rats are laughing
Intensely, lucid and remorseful.

Come and let the burden unfold
To its fullest dragon
While the comedy of denial is due
And the error of guilt sinking in
Heaven help me play
Consistent with your way.